Tuesday, June 28, 2005
summertime.
you know, i realized that every time i post on this thing lately it begins with something about summer. and so does almost everyone else's. summertime is just like whatever. takin' it a day at a time. but it's mostly been cool. just chillin with friends.. i'm lucky enough to at least have one friend on base, but that won't last long. ahh, i don't know. i'm sure it won't be the most
horrible thing in the world, but i don't know.
brad's party was friday. that was pretty
sweet. even though i still haven't gotten him anything. haha. but anyway, it was cool because we got like 2 free go-kart rides, one free game of mini golf, and 19 tokens for the arcade. had a hecka good time there. then we went to the creekwalk, but we didn't realize that it closes at nine now instead of 10 like it did last year. but whatever. so then me and zack and brad spent the night at zack's house. that was cool too. brad brought medal of honor: rising sun. we played that till like 4 in the morning. then we figured we'd pull an all-nighter because it was close enough to sunrise. my first all-nighter like.. ever. haha. it was cool though, watching the sun rise above the mountains. it was
freezing though. so after that we slept till like 3 in the afternoon. that was cool too haha.
fast forward to today. it was cool. there was a little bit of a mix-up yesterday, because i thought we were going to the pool or something. i dunno. anyway, we ended up going to the mall. we were gonna watch a movie, until me and zack found out they wanted us to watch
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. heck no. actually, we caved in at the last minute. but apparently we made them mad throughout the whole process, so they decided no on the movie. later on, we went over to AE, and decided we were gonna dress each other up (guys dress girls, girls dress guys.. pick outfits, i mean). at first me and zack were just like,"we quit, we're not good at this." so then they had picked out outfits for us, and we tried them on. i dunno.. didn't like them as much as last time, but whatever. anyway, they badgered us into finding outfits for them. so apparently we actually did a really good job. lily's pants looked
hecka good on her. no joke man. and nia's shirt.. heck yeah. and i picked those out baby. haha, i'm such a nerd. i have to give zack credit though, he did pick out nia's jeans and lily's overshirt, so we both did great. haha. then we went and at taco bell, so petalio (nice teeth), and just sat around for like 30 minutes talking about love. hahaha. we got a ride home from nia's mom, and now i'm thankful i'm even alive after that ride. haha.
so.. good times. louisiana's in three days. i'm excited, but i'll miss everyone. i loathe mixed emotions. and i don't mean that
just for louisiana either. friggin' a.
chris
chris ran as fast as he could
..never look back..
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
the first day of summer. (technically)
yep.. the first day of actual summer. too bad it doesn't feel like it on travis with gay 50 bajillion mile an hour winds. and you know when you ESPECIALLY feel those winds? when you're running three miles. not fun at all.
anyway.. summer. hmm. i honestly don't know. it still doesn't feel like summer to me. just a long break. that's what a lot of other people are saying too, but it's true. i have done a few things since summer has started to make it feel a little more like summer. i'm not gonna go into strenuous detail of the days just because i'm lazy like that. i'll just recap on a few things.
Brian's Going-Away Party-
that was pretty fun i guess. i dunno.. i don't really know brian all that well. i felt kinda bad when i was with that group of like 4 or 5 people that were just standing there. no hugs or nothin. but that's ok. for most of the party, me, anthony, zack, lily, and vona all chilled on the side on the little swing. that was cool.. like, the player section baby. can't touch that. also, we ate some of anthony's nasty lumpia that was made from chicken and carrots. gross.
Marine World-
that was hecka fun. gosh, i haven't ridden a roller coaster in SO long. i forgot how much fun they were. ok, not really.. but still. and boy am i a yeller. of course, i got that from my uncles from texas. dem boys cold. anyway, quick story. i'd never ridden vertical velocity before because i'ts always been closed for repair or whatever. it was finally open yesterday when i went. but i was nervous because you know that feeling you get that even though you like roller coasters, you get nervous for a new one? well, that was me all the way. i wasn't about to chicken out. so we got on and rode it. and guess what.. i surely didn't hate it, that's for sure. i knew i wouldn't. but it's gotta be the best ride there besides medusa. so needless to say, we rode that ride three times. hecka fun.
there's my "summer," for you. at least, so far..
chris
chris ran as fast as he could
..never look back..
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
so, i've utterly ignored my blog yet again. i was doing it on purpose again too, but for a different reason. i didn't want the feeling of the end-year post to go away. but i guess i gotta give it up sometime. i don't like this feeling. haha.
anyway, this summer's been good. i can't really complain. i mean, being lazy.. no work, nothin'. i wake up somewhere between 8:30 and 9:30 in the morning so i can go running before it gets scorching hot (although, the weather's bein' really gay lately.. getting kinda cold, and they say it's supposed to rain. i mean, this is california. this isn't what i signed up for in the contract.). and i tend to go to sleep around midnight, so it works out. these past few days have been kinda eventless, except for today. me and zack usually go to the peak around 7-ish and chill there till 9. tonite was hecka fun though because we ended up at the skatepark and rode around on the ramps and crap. that was fun.. it was like a new discovery or something. haha.
today was really really good. i woke up at 7:30 (yeah, i konw what you're thinking.. how can you possibly have a good day that starts with you waking early. shutup). anyway, lily showed up approximately 7 minutes later (what a nice way to start a morning.. lily's smiling face. ha.) she's lucky i didn't show up at the door with boxers on. anyway, after i got dressed we walked to burger to eat breakfast. that was cool i guess. even though the weirdo got a burger. i still don't understand that concept.. eating a burger for breakfast. freak. so we went home.. chilled there for a while. i had to take a shower and crap. after the shower we proceeded towatchraiseyourvoiceandihopenoonenoticesthislinebecauseidontwannaadmitiwatchedthatshow. so after that was done.. i put on some dashboard and cleaned the house a little bit, just to make it to where mom didn't get mad when she walked in the freakin' house. after a few calls to people we decided to go bowling. we walked to wisecarver's house and he answered the door in his boxers (wisercarver is totally my idol. i'm doing that from now on, so be warned). while he was getting ready or whatever, i started playing the drums even though i kinda suck at them. but that's alright.. me and him are gonna jam out tomorrow when i go over to his house. "Chris to the Second Power" baby. you don't even know about that. anyway, long story short, we didn't go bowling. we did eat though. that was nice. anyway, we walked back to my house.. chris and his bro-ham went home and me and zack and lil chilled in the front of the house till lily had to go. bleh.. hate telling long stories because i'm always like "and then.." or "after that..". anyway, me and zack ate some hash and chocolate ship cookies.. rode our bikes to the peak.. then we rode to the bowling alley to chill out. we were hecka crackin' up at the stupidest stuff like ever. then we ended up at the skating park but you already know about that. now i'm going around in circles. i'm done.
chris
chris ran as fast as he could
..never look back..
Saturday, June 11, 2005
First day of summer
man.. first day of summer. saturday, june 11, 2005. craziness man. i never EVER thought it would come. it's finally here. i'm happy in most ways. i'm glad to be lazy. i'm glad to have no work. i'm glad to sleep in. i'm glad for everything, pretty much. the thing is.. i feel like there's a lotta things missing. i miss everyone ALREADY. i know that longing will just dissipate as time goes on, but there'll always be that faint void because i won't have everyone by my side every second of the day. i won't have the knowledge that my friends are absolutely without a doubt gonna be there for me if i need them. i guess that's what the phone is for? ahh.. i dont know. i'm glad it's summertime.. time for more changes in myself, inside and out. it's gonna be a good one.. summer of '05. i'm excited, happy, sad.. you name it.
so before i go into this extremely long and painful post about the year.. let me talk about the past few days, since i haven't filled in. i've avoided the blog, because i didn't want to post an end-year post too quickly. anyway.. yesterday was of course the last day of school. it was good and bad.. mostly good. i had pe and english, and english was a lot easier than i thought it would be. so yesterday was good. i had a hard time leaving some friends, but of course, i didn't show that. but it saddened me a lot to know that this would be the last embrace i'd have with that person for a while, or maybe even forever.
anyway, i went to graduation to meet lily and nia there. of course, nia being the gay hole that she is, forgot my freakin yearbook. thanks nia.. now i have to wait for lily to bring it to me on base.. hopefully you didn't forget THAT too. anyway.. grad was pretty boring, but it was cool i guess. i rode with zack and brad back to zack's house to spend the nite, and we ate dinner and such. we were gonna go to heather wiswell's grad party, but we found out it was in vacaville, so that was a big N-O. anyway.. we had a good time i guess last nite.. of course, we fell asleep early.. like 11. but that's alright, because we were tired. then today we chilled for a long while. played darts and stayed inside for most of the day. the highlite of the day was definitely that very nice batch of "Zack's Famous Waffles"!! i was so excited to eat those things man.. i haven't had them in a long time. then me and zack went to BK to eat with our free meals that we got from there. we chilled at the bx, and now we're here at The Peak, and i'm telling you my life story. here goes.
Freshman Year - Vanden High
all i can say is.. dang. i can't believe.. it's over. i mean.. finally over. i just.. have such a hard time trying to wrap my mind around that concept. when i look back on some aspects of it.. it seems so LONG ago. but then.. from all other angles, it's like it ended in a week, and we're here now ready for sophomore year to come. of course i'm not, but that's a different story. man.. freshman year. we all walked in thinking we were so bad because man.. we were freshman and we didn't care. we felt older, wiser, and we thought we knew everything. ok, maybe not EVERYTHING. but we sure thought we were way better than we had ever been in our entire lives. which is mostly true. i mean.. we are in high school, and we always hear that these are gonna be the greatest years of our lives. yet high school i think.. has turned a lot of us into worse people in sense. i know it did somewhat to me. maybe it's just the drawl of school.. having to go there EVERY day, seeing the same people every day. it just became so monotonous. i became very bitter towards life in general for a small amount of time. of course, it wasn't just school that did that to me. circumstances had a lot to do with it.
many things happened this year though, that changed me for the better. events that i thought i'd never get over, because they were so horrible, actually in turn made me a better person. my mother leaving was one of those major events. it made me, along with the rest of my family, a much stronger person. i realized that yeah, my mom is the greatest mom in the ENTIRE world and i do take a lot of the things that she does for me for granted. and it's sad.. really sad that it takes something that major to realize how great you actually do have it. but when my mom was gone, i had to figure out how to do things.. to not let the house become the messiest house of the century, to become more independent. but my mom.. she's my hero. she's everything to me, and if ever had to lose her.. i don't know what i would do.
the next major event.. me and nia. my only relationship this year. and a pretty darn good one at that. she helped me learn so many things about myself. helped me to straighten out many things in my life that i was doing wrong. she probably doesn't even realize that, but it's true. yeah, there were a lot of downs, but i wouldn't trade that time i had with her for anything. i just want to thank her for being there for me throughout all the times that i acted retarded.. for putting up with me, basically. i did a lot of stupid things, but she helped. so thanks nia.. i appreciate all the things that you did for me.
track and cross country played amazingly major roles in my life. i started cross country not knowing what to expect. i walked into the classroom with martinez talking about what we'd be doing for the season in cross country, what we'd get up to in practice, and what kinds of goals we have. and holy cow, was i surprised. after finding out we'd get up to 7 miles a day, along with crazy mile-intervals, i wasn't so psyched up about running anymore. of course, i still went to practice, because running is my one chance to show people who i really am and what i'm capable of. but i don't run just for that, of course. i'm not gonna go into detail about the life lessons that running teaches you, and the amazing exhausted bliss you can get from running, but you get the point. i improved so awesomely over this past cross country season, i can't begin to explain. and even though i know tinez won't ever see this.. i'm really grateful to him. he's such a great coach, and right now, i couldn't ask for a better one. cross country wasn't only good for the running. our team bonded so well.. it was crazy. yeah, it's cliche, but it's like we're one big family. and a great family at that. i spent more time with them than i spent with my regular friends. i mean.. it was every single afternoon, then almost every single saturday. crazy.. i love those guys though. track wasn't nearly as fun, however. maybe it's because i don't enjoy running in circles.. or maybe it's because there's a big track team, as compared to a small cross country team. we didn't really bond at all. of course, there was some improvement.. and again, i'm thankful to martinez for that, but other than that the season kind of sucked. so.. as you can see, running is my life. i love it.. if i lost it.. i don't know what i'd do. and running became so major this year.. that i couldn't imagine going to school knowing that there was no running to do. what a freak.
gosh.. friends were so important this year. there were a lot of points where i, along with everyone else was so busy that there was no time to hang out. but no matter what.. i knew that we'd all be there for each other, if it was needed. i grew so close to three people this year, it's not even funny. zack, nia, and lily.. they're such great friends. knowing that i won't see lily and nia every day like i normally do is a hard fact to face. i'm gonna miss knowing i can just walk up to one of them (or all four of them, for that matter) and talk about anything. i'm just looking forward to spending time with them this summer.. it's gonna be great.
one thing that really got me this year was the business of it all. we ALL had things to do. me with running, zack with soccer/aerospace/gw marching, lily with asb, and almost every other one of my friends with marching band. i never realized how busy we actually all were gonna get this year. i got caught up so much into what i was doing, that a lot of times, i didn't just take in the present day.. live in it. i think we all do that sometimes. of course, looking forward to the future is good. but if we all continue to look forward and don't take in what we have during these times now, what life is that? you don't even see anything. everything is just working towards something new. and yeah, that's good sometimes.. but like i said.. we gotta take in our surroundings. i love jack johnson's line.. "slow down everyone, you're moving too fast. frames can't catch you when you're moving like that.."
as for the entire year sum up.. i couldn't do that. but i could name something major that happened every month that helped this year be what it actually was.
August-
i started cross country, and met some amazing new people that i'll probably never forget in my entire life.
September-
school "officially" started.. everything started to become routine. i started finding my "place" in that which we call high school.
October-
football games were definitely a big plus. halloween was hecka fun too, because i got to join in on the tradition that zack and brad have for halloween. dressing up like scarecrows and scaring kids. holy crap man.. good times. but it seems like it was just yesterday. gosh..
November-
thanksgiving, of course. i got to go down to louisiana and visit friends and family. mostly family.. but i had a great time. all this time, zack and brad are having fun snowboarding and going to a GRITS concert. it was fun to hear about them though. this is also when we found out my mom would be leaving for kuwait.. and i surely wasn't ready for that.
December-
Christmas was great this year. i got my beloved fender fat strat. hecka clean. but then, my good mood was pretty much ruined a couple days later with my mom leaving for kuwait for four months.
January-
my 15th birthday. we didnt really do anything, but that's ok. i got some pretty cool clothes, along with a lot of money. on a side note, this is when zack's and nia's dads both left for the middle east as well. not very relevant to my life i guess, but i feel it's worth mentioning because they were very easy to connect to while all three of us had a parent that was gone.
February-
me, zack, nia, and lily started hanging out a lot more. then of course, me and nia started going out.. which in the end.. i'm thankful for. she was a great girlfriend.
March-
i have two words.. SPIRIT WEEK. good times man.. i once again grew close to people i didnt hang out with before. i also met karessa tam mendoza. now, she is the coolest. i'm glad i met her.. her smile brightens up my life. hahaha.
April-
the end of school mood is really starting to settle in. i started getting more and more lazy by the second. spring break kinda sucked, but then it was fun as well. from me wearing girl pants to getting drunk (haha, yeah right).
May-
me and nia broke up.. but we were both cool with it.. at least, after a while i was. also.. my mom came back. that was awesome.. having GOOD cooked food again. after she came back, it was like suddenly the house became clean again. i guess it was all her doing.
June-
not much to talk about, i guess. school finally came to an end. i became a really good procrastinator. also, i'll never forget the romeo and juliet scene that jessica and i had to act out on tape. "Sin from my lips? O, trespass sweetly urged! Give me my sin again!" (they kiss)
i'd just like to make one more comment before i end this ridiculously long post. near the middle of the year, zack and i (along with a few others) realized just how obnoxious the group started getting. and i'm sorry to anyone who is reading this and is getting offended. but it started getting really bad. this is why me and zack basically stoped hanging out with the group during the day. i mean, i can't say that everyone's retarded, because they're not. but it is true that some people made the group no fun to hang out with anymore. i won't name those people, but the people that know that i enjoy their company know who they are. i'm kinda sorry that the group goit retarded, but maybe it was bound to happen anyway. i don't know.
so there you have it. freshman year. i hope you enjoyed it.
chris
chris ran as fast as he could
..never look back..
Thursday, June 09, 2005
day 2 of finals = easy as pie
yeah.. not that big a deal. i had the algebra and french finals today. of course.. french was nothin because i was already done with the final anyway, so i just sat around for 2 hours doin' nothin. ahh.. math was a little difficult. i dont know, maybe it's because i switched between four different teachers this year for math. hecka gay. i knew most of it, but i'm guessing i'll make a B on the final, considering the things that i didnt know plus the things that i did, but messed up on. oh well.. i guess if i have a B in the class, i really don't care all that much. yeah, i'm a slacker.. i know.
tomorrow is the LAST day of school.. and the last time i'll ever have to step into ms. zwicker's class and do something realated to academics. thank you God. although, that english final will probably be the hardest of the finals i have to take. oh well.. i think i know romeo and juliet well enough to do well on the final. i sure hope so anyway.
chris
i need some new music to listen to. got any ideas?
chris ran as fast as he could
..never look back..
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
ahh.. i absolutely love half days. i don't even care if they included finals, because we dont have to learn anything anymore. not that we were learning things at vanden anyway. hecka gay.. this whole last quarter seems like we didnt learn anything in classes. just like.. sitting there, doing nothing. maybe not, but maybe i was just SO bored in those classes that that's what it felt like.
anyway.. i had auto theory and science today to take for finals. i dunno.. i guess it was ok. the auto ID questions were retarded.. well, maybe i was. i didnt know like half the ID questions. but i did good on the lab final otherwise. the written was a little less difficult than last semester's, because i knew a lot more stuff. plust i went over the material last nite anyway, haha. then came science. i got like 50 different opinions on that freakin test before i went in and actually took it. some people were like "holy crap, that was freakin hard" (lily) and then some were like "oh, it was hecka easy" (jason). so i walked in expecting this crazy hard test.. and guess who was wrong. lily. thanks lily, for making me nervous for nothing. appreciate it. anyway, needless to say, the test was hecka easy. it was just long. but i aced it, so no worries.
otherwise, this week is going by okay. finals should whiz by tomorrow because i only have to take the math one.. which reminds me, i gotta do the study guide. great. i hate how teachers grade study guides.. if we dont wanna study, we shouldn't have to. ahh, whatever.
chris
by the way, california's weather is the most retarded thing i've ever seen in my entire life.
chris ran as fast as he could
..never look back..
Sunday, June 05, 2005
got to drive today. my truck. and you know what else? most of it was by myself. heck yes!
that's all i wanted to say.
chris
chris ran as fast as he could
..never look back..
Saturday, June 04, 2005
so here i am again. at pretty much the same time. except this time, i'm hecka tired. but i had a good day. a really good day actually. it kinda almost felt like summer. gosh.. summer.. i love you. if summer was a person, i would either:
- marry it
- make it my hero
yeah, you hear that anthony? you wouldn't be my hero if summer was a person. but for now, you are, because i wore your shirt. and i like it. shutup.
so back to today. lily had a Pool Party. man, hecka fun. i've been lookin forward to this party for like, two weeks now. there was food, and a pool, and a guitar, and a lot of PEOPLE. the first time i've swam all year. gosh! then after it got dark, and we had cleaned up the backyard (to an extent anyway), we went inside and watched the freshman Spirt Show! heck yeah. me and zack were crackin up at ourselves at the end where we wore our towels around our necks and had toothbrushes in our mouths. so funny man. ahh.. we crack ourselves up. anyway, just wanted to thank lily for having a party.. hecka fun.
that's probably gonna be the hilight of the rest of the week, with homosexual finals coming up. OH BOY. i surely cant wait for those. whatever, as long as they pass by quickly, i really dont give a care. life is good though. it's hot outside, i'm wearing shorts like everyday, and school's drawing to an end. yesssssss.
chris
chris ran as fast as he could
..never look back..
Friday, June 03, 2005
this week went by HECKA slow. no joke man.. school is the most retarded thing ever. i mean like.. they're still giving us homework. holy crap. i mean, at least cut us some slack and not teach us anything new with the gay finals coming up. those are gonna suck so bad. i hate just thinking about them. bleh..
anyway.. today was pretty ok i guess. we had the "all-school awards" ceremony in the gym before lunch. that was hecka stupid because it was mandatory. effin boring man. and then anthony got an award in geometry. what a nerd. ha.. jp. and then jason took like, the rest of the awards that were actually possible for a freshman to get. jeez man.. dont take ALL the glory. gosh.. at least share. hahaha, just kidding. anyway after school me and kyle took some shoe polish and wrote all over scott's car. now that was funny. we wrote some crazy stuff. oh man, we were crackin up. just hope he doesnt find out it was us. lol.
after that i got on bus 27 and rode to kt's house. got there and chilled for a little while.. we watched the end of dirty dancing: havana nights (or at least.. i did.. they musta been already watching it.. freaks). then we just messed around for the rest of the night. we laughed a lot too. i guess it wasnt really as fun as i expected it to be, but that's ok. no offense to kt or anything.. it was still fun, but that's not it. i guess.. i dont know. my mind was off elsewhere. ahh.. anyway, i hope lily's party tomorrow is hecka fun. i'm sure it will be. i hope it will be..
chris
chris ran as fast as he could
..never look back..
